Jealousy

Just got an email from Carrie, Daniel's engaged. He's going to be a daddy.

Why does this upset me so much, I don't want him, I don't care about him. But how dare he find happiness. It broke my heart walking in on them together like that. I suffered so why should he get everything he's ever wanted now, loving wife and child. Here I am alone and dateless.

How is it fair, how does Karma square this off. I must either have something amazing coming or I did something terrible to deserve this.

No I am not going to let this get me down, let it hurt me. I am still an amazing person and I'll find some measure of happiness.

I hope he gets everything he deserves

To sleep to dream

I had a terrible sleep, well actually that's a lie, that implies I had sleep which was terrible, when in fact I spent most of the night wondering why I was awake.

I woke up, fully awake like it was morning. Decided to just lie there and wait for the alarm to go off. After what seemed like an hour I decided to see what the time was, I rolled over checked the time to discover that it was in fact 2.20am. I had barely been asleep when I woke.

So much for that.

New town new people

Well I have to say in just one short evening I've met quite a few new people.

Most of them seem really lovely, one I'm not so sure of, and one told me I was beautiful. He made me blush. I felt like a little school girl with a crush. And when he winked at me I near lit up. Damn its good to be found attractive by someone who is not a lying sack of shit. Don't know if I'll get the chance to see him again or not, guys that good looking usually have girls lined around the block in my experience.

I met this lovely woman, she's really lovely. Wait I said that already. She says she is a bard, I think that means she means she is a writer. But she said she knows the vampire queen and can introduce me. Imagine that. I didn't even know they had queens or anything like that.

I think I might like living here.

The life I left behind

So moving back home I've left behind another life. I was working in a book store, well running it actually. It was a nice little place with a little cafe built in. We specialised in books of a spiritual nature as well as fantasy novels. Every Thursday night was poetry night. Before I left we even had Neil Gaiman come and read a poem. "My Last Landlady"

I had plenty of friends and we were often out and about when we had time.

I had a man of my own. Or at least I thought he was my own until I caught him with his ex-girlfriend when I came back from a girls night out early. As you can imagine I ended it and threw his ass out. I can give second chances on many things but betrayal is not one of them.

So I'm hoping that I'll make new friends and maybe find myself someone special in my new life.

It's exciting and scary all at the same time.

The Spiral

The Spiral was Aunt Seph's pride and joy. It sells anything and everything related to the Celts and Druidism. She raised me in the Olde ways so I know about most of the stuff I now sell. I also do readings. Aunt Seph could read with any deck, and do runes. All I can do is my Celtic Dragon Tarot. I hope the clients are okay with that.

I studied history and comparative religion for a while so I am pretty knowledgeable and I hope it will hold me in good stead.

Arrivals

Aunt Persephone passed away about a month ago. She left me everything, the house and the shop. So after a little thought I've left behind my life in the big apple and come home again.

Here I am after so many years selling all manner of Celtic items and doing readings with my well used Celtic Dragon Tarot pack.

I'm looking forward to making a fresh start. Some come stop by The Spiral and say hi